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bionicstaringmachine) wrote2024-03-02 10:55 pm
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tfln continuation — 07/05/2024 — @hnif.
I'm not the only one out here doin' the work. But some of 'em are laying low and we're doing a lot more digging and rebuilding than world saving right now.
[ The Hydra uprising and the fall of SHIELD kind of put everyone in a weird spot, including the Avengers, when it came to the public eye and their opinion and the trust they had in people who went out there and did what he did. And a lot of his efforts have been put in finding Hel or tracking down some of the known Hydra agents like Rumlow who managed to get away. He only got involved in actual world saving activities if it happened to be something that required all or most of the Avengers to be present. ]
Yeah, it's called PTSD.
[ His response might read as dry and while it was in part an attempt at levity, he does have a point. She's dealing with PTSD from everything she's gone through, because even he deals with it and he didn't have his mind wiped and reprogrammed who knows how many times. It's a thought that makes him want to use a little more force than necessary on Rumlow or anyone else he can find from Hydra, even if it's too late to make what was done to her right, but making sure that they pay for it is better than nothing. ]
I'm stronger than I look. You saw I was up and around and it wasn't long after you pulled me outta that river. I can handle myself.
[ He also doesn't sleep all that soundly either. He might not have episodes like she does, but he wakes to random noises, he'll see things he'd rather not - glimpses of the past, events he wishes he could do over - and is often times fitful. ]
Le'me help you.
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[ Maybe he should just kill her and save everyone the trouble. That'll put an end to her potentially hurting other people, and him having to worry about her. In some abstract, shallow sense, she understands why he seems to be compelled to help her. He's told her about their past. She's observed others — couples — behaving in a similar fashion. She can come to terms with that, make some sense out of the situation.
It's when they're together — even just like this, talking — that she struggles. It's... different, when he's around. When he's close. She feels. She wants. ]
Was I good to you?
When we were together, before.
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[ He'll go to bat for her. Even if his time as Captain America hasn't been that long ( probably only a little longer than Steve by a little while, at this point ), he was also the best friend of the previous Captain America and a war hero, even with the views people might have on SHIELD and the Avengers and their involvements in certain disputes and the destruction that sometimes follows. His word might have some sway, enough to get her an honest hearing and maybe a pardon, if they're lucky. ]
Yeah. Even when we were just writing back and forth to each other, when you weren't on the front lines with me yet.
Wasn't easy when you were dressing up as a man back then. Probably got a few of 'em wondering, even if they didn't say anything.